I don’t think it’s healthy to be scared of awakening or psychedelic like experiences.
I am saying this from the perspective of the individual, and only in terms being scared throughout multiple periods in one’s life. There’s really nothing to be afraid of that’s not already inevitable.
-Psychedelics are valuable tools for practicing for your individual death, and hopefully healing yourself to make it easier for when your life starts to fade.
A PEAK INSIde mY MIND: didn’t buy a Tesla earlier this year cuz of Elon.
-https://www.seattletimes.com/business/once-a-must-for-wealthy-seattle-liberals-teslas-now-feel-an-elon-backlash/
September, before I became a super public transit user… I was seriously considering purchasing a used Tesla Model Y—not just as a car, but as a potential home.
-The idea was appealing: Washington state's generous EV incentives (which have since been exhausted) would have reduced the $35,000 price tag to around $23,000. I had planned to finance it through a combination of my Roth IRA, BECU student loans, and financial aid, paying cash to avoid the high insurance premiums that come with dealer financing.
I really was getting a lot of dopamine while planning to buy the car, probably thinking about flexing the Tesla on everyone.
-I was going to use UW campus for cheap incentivized charging and I had prepared to buy a high tech low-energy fridge, oven, and maybe blanket that I could all run from the Tesla battery itself. These accessories would have costed around $250 and I was quite impressed w the present utility level of these unique niche technologies.
-It’s lowkey much more chill to be a hobo hippie today. The days of propane cooking/heating and overly processed foods can come to an end.
But I didn’t buy the Tesla cuz I don’t like Elon’s emerging new political beliefs. More than anything else, Elon confuses me, maybe someone has to be the super villain so Im just pointing the finger at him. But overall I think he is a guy w high intelligence but low wisdom. I think he put his hand in companies like nueralink, only cuz he can, he gets ahead of himself, and this new energy of his just helps him to double back on failing to do deep individual contemplation. He’s one of these guys, (who although could end up on the right side of history by sheer luck) pushes too hard, an industrialist, and I think he’s already sold his soul in the name of progress. A perspective, which as Ive become more wise, Ive come to respect less.
So I decided not to buy the Tesla. And I didn’t buy another used EV either, cuz the selectection was mid. It was hard to do as my ego really wanted the Tesla but im proud of my sacrifice. I think it helped to take the collective perspective during my contemplation, and realizing even having that brand of car in Seattle would keep me up at night, fearing possible damage from public resent.
I think this helps show how stage green (the hippies spiral level) small choices or boycotts can lead to big changes in terms of who holds the power. Stage orange and blue are still in scarcity mindsets and might miss how these seemingly small ethical decisions can collectively reshape our world., that are more organic, sustainable, equitable etc.
UW bothell
One of my favorite chill spots is UW Bothell. I chill there, do all my normal activities, (even using paper towels to dry myself off if I choose to spontaneously shower). It is only miles from where I sleep. But today I was there doing my normal activities, and I spotted a girl w red hair. I was lowkey too stunned to approach, but maybe next Time.
I wan’t a political movement that focuses on healing.
Democratic candidates currently are like the cringe kid who tries to beef w the bully using logic instead of turning inwards. Democrats now are like the kid who hasn’t fully grown up yet. Still having to argue w their parents. I want ai and tech to send large amounts of people (that are willing to have microchips implanted) into insane states of bliss and peace (similar to the experiences I have tasted on psychedelics but more constant). We needa stop arguing w these old fucks and start showing them, there’s more to life than even your deepest current states, this love could heal people by itself, which is why I think we need a party w more focus on healing .
Suffering is love.
Leo once said “ the greatest teacher is intense love, the second greatest is intense suffering.” Although I don’t completely like how this is phrased because it separates suffering from love itself… Upon hearing it, I felt significance and now understood what he was trying to convey.
Suffering forces you to get real, you escape suffering by realizing there’s nothing to suffer about. There’s no destination, you crack life by realizing this.
Realizing the unrealizable. There’s no you. You can’t even describe yourself. You are now (4d).
Try whippets on mushrooms.
Unlocked the next key
Today while reading “operating manual to spaceship earth” (that was on my list and recommended by Daniel schmachtenber) I unlocked the next key. A surge of motivation and confidence filled my system. I even had a noticeably hotter body temperature for the rest of the day.
I will continue paying attention to the subtle signs (including bodily changes, I was recently reminded of this by friend Emil) from a hopefully increasingly meta perspective.
My awareness of this makes me feel special, or perhaps just reminds me.